Yep, for the second time this year I have caught a really bad cold or flu or something. Only this time I can't even turn my neck round. I am as stiff as cardboard so it is making me try to work comical, and painful to say the least. I would much rather be in bed, but I can't. Sadly still have 2 more days of the working week to go! I think I need a pretty hefty holiday! 

Another 5 hours and 20 minutes to go. *sighs*

I just noticed...the first heading I put "Luck of money whine" There is certainly no luck in my financial situation. I meant Lack! Please excuse my stupidity!

I decided I was bored of my Live Journal colour scheme. Wanted something a little brighter, and slightly more pink...tehehe. Apologies if it is an eye sore for anyone but I like it so there. 
I am writing this entry now because I feel I should. I am being pretty crappy in maintaining it so I figure now I have the time, I should put some effort in. After all, its not like I am so busy at work anyway! 
I will head up the little bits and pieces I write, so that if anyone is reading this, they won't have to waste their time reading things they don't want too. 

The customary luck of money whine
I want to get paid. I estimate it will be pay day in about two weeks. This is frustrating. I am trying my hardest not to hit my overdraft this month but I know I will do. I think I will just have to be careful I don't go into it too much. In two weeks, how much can I actually spend?
I've been a good girl, spending my lunch breaks at work inside so I don't go and spend lots on random purchases around Central. 

My thoughts on the film Contact, and space in general
I watched the film Contact on the weekend. I was actually pretty amazed by it. I have always been fascinated by space, and I am convinced that there is other living life forms out there. As they say in contact, if there isn't it would be an awful big waste of space. I just think that its incredibly naive of us to think that we are the only living things in the whole entire universe, I mean it is huge! What makes us think that only earth is capable of housing living organisms. What frustrates me though, is that we will never ever know what else is out there. Not really. I mean, we have a fair idea of the planets surrounding us but what about the rest of space...I think thats what I liked about Contact. It is a film that in my opinion, realistically depicts what would happen should another living life form contact earth. I was watching that film for probably about two hours but the time flew. I was so engrossed. It is very cleverly done, and quite realistic. I would definetly recommend watching it should anyone be interested in Space. It kinda pisses me off though, I mean they plow money into the space programs, but all I've heard lately is - "pluto is not counted a planet". Seriously now, instead of doing research on new things, maybe finding out more of the secrets of the universe, they waste their time demoting a planet that has been a planet for god knows how many years!!! We all grew up with 9 planets, and now there are only 8 "real" planets. Stupid, no? 

Valentines Day and/or New Inkings!
Valentines day is fast approaching. What am I saying, fast approaching - its tomorrow! I am seeing my boyfriend tomorrow. I've taken the afternoon off so that I can spend a little more time with him, otherwise I wouldn't get to see him till half sevenish. We are aiming to go into Camden for a little bit, which should be quite nice. It is going to take a lot of will power to not get a new tattoo since I keep thinking about it lately! But that said, i can't afford it, and have not entirely worked out the design I want so it would be an incredible waste. BUT I SOOOO WANT ONE! Grrrr....They are addictive! Not as addictive as Irregular Choice shoes, but a close second. To be fair some of the stars on my wrist need slight touching up. The ink is fading slightly but my tattooist is gone, and I will have to get a new one. Its abit scary though, they are permanent and I've seen tattooists fuck up, and the wrist tattoos are near perfect and I don't want them ruined. I may just leave them as they are. I am also abit nervous about the pain again! I know when I got them done, I was pleasently surprised, they didn't hurt half as much as I assumed they would, but now I am thinking of a new project - I am worried I was in denial about the lack of pain and expect them to hurt. I am a nut! 
Anyone got any ideas for a new tattoo design? Or infact placement ideas which are abit unusual but pretty? Although that said, I doubt any places are really that unusual. I just don't want a tattoo anywhere that sags. I don't want to be a 60 year old with saggy skin and wrinkled tats! *shudders*

Charlie NOT taking a vow of silence!
Charlie will not shut up! Charlie is my cockatiel. We have two, I can't recall mentioning them before. They hate eachother but Charlie loved Toby. Since Toby has gone, Charlie has not shut up. Every morning we are greeted with high pitched screeching. It is an absolute pain!!! Do birds mourn? I guess they might do, and Charlie did adore Tobe, but seriously! 

Bird Flu - Bernard Matthews - Food stuffs!
I am also getting really frustrated with the state of affairs in the food industry. It is getting to the point where I swear they will be like, right you cant eat beef because of..... lamb because of ...... pork because of ....... fish because of ....... and chicken / turkey because of ..... 
I can't say I've ever been a fan of red meat, which I suppose could be surpising since I come from a cypriot family, but I really don't like the taste. Due to that reason, BSE or Mad Cow Disease never bothered me that much, I would only very occasionally eat burgers and I HATE steaks and chops and all that, so it wasn't a great loss to me. I hate Seafood, so anything to do with that doesn't really bother me too much. But Bird flu! I only eat Chicken  / Turkey. Its the only type of meat I really rate, and it definetly has to be off the bone. I am a big baby, and cannot eat anything still attached to the bone. It grosses me out. This whole outbreak on the Bernard Matthews farm is abit scary. I myself am a massive fan of mini kievs. I am sure Bernard Matthews make them. This left me heartbroken. I am such a fussy eater that this limits my meat intake to very little if any. I cant help thinking that the way we are going, and the way humans interfere with anything and everything they can get hold of, we are going to end up being able to eat nothing for fear of disease! Ho hum.

Music Rambles
On a musical note, I find myself really hooked on Sophie Ellis Bextor's new song. I have recently noticed my music taste has broadened considerably. I am not sure if it is a good thing or a bad thing, actually I think its a good thing. At least I am not too narrow minded in that section of my life now. It's a start to more character building for myself! 
            Another piece of good news is The Birthday Massacre are releasing a new album in August! Its ages away but the fact that there is a month noted, is a good thing. Just in time for my birthday too! Excellent stuff. I hope they tour it too, because I still maintain they were the best band I saw live last year, and I definetly intend on going again! *Fingers crossed*
           Also noticed that Nightwish have closed auditions for a new front "person". I am very intrigued to see what they have selected! I loved them when Tarja was there, I thought they were quite different, and once they grew on me, I was pretty hooked...although over listening did mean I soon tired. Apparently they are releasing a new single and unveiling the new singer in May. Looking forward to it!! 
            My boyfriend does not understand why I like Motley Crue so much since apparently they are chauvenistic (sp?!) Hmmm, that statement made me laugh and since I am talking about music, I thought I'd put it in here. On that note, when on earth will they release new stuff?! And why can I not find the Rockstar Supernova album over here!! Dammit. I still think Dilana should have won that competition though...*grumbles* 

Concludes:
Thats it, this is a stupidly long entry and I have now successfully made it into the afternoon. By one minute. It calls for a celebration, and maybe a glass of orange juice with bits. Terribly exciting stuff. 

Bore you later. x
  

It has been a while since I've updated this. I've grown out of touch with the whole blogging thing, as I seem to do every so often. It's not to say there hasn't been much to report, I just havnt felt like writing about it. 

I'm in a very odd place right now. Its really indescribable, I don't know how else to put that. Things are going both ways in my life atm. Some good, some not so good. 
Things with Kevin have never been better, we speak for hours every night, and when we're together time just flys. It's really nice to have someone there who I like so much...my love life, just for a change, leaves me satisfied. 
Work though, I can't say the same about. I can't say i'm unhappy with my job at all, because by any stretch of the imagination, I can't complain. My bosses are good, the work isn't difficult, and I am able to spend a while online everyday doing my own thing. I just cant help thinking though, that I'm destined not to go anywhere. My career path is mapped out in such a way but what else is there for me. 

Somewhere along the lines I fear i've lost sight of my dreams......

I have been totally crap at keeping this updated with the goings on of my life lately...which directly falls in line with the fact that there has been shit loads going on!

Over the last 3 weeks, i met someone new...he was a friend of my best friends and after we were introduced we really hit it off and went from there...As of two weeks last Tuesday we officially got together and I've seen him pretty much 3/4 of my spare time! It is refreshingly different having someone there who seems genuinely into me, and who really puts me first..the ironic thing is his arrival kicked the Ex off into proclaiming all these big things about how he will move to London for me now, and how hes changed. When that happened, any thoughts of the new guy being a rebound were confirmed as falasy. I had the opportunity to get my ex right where i wanted him for the last YEAR and i turned it down because i really really really like the new guy. So far all has been going well, although on Saturday he leaves for uni. He goes to Hatfield though so its only about a 40 minute drive and he drives, its just past Watford where i go shopping often...He wants me to go up there with him this weekend, i'm in two minds as to wether to go...i really really want too though...

Other then that, I'm really suffering the burn of lack of sleep...the constant late nights i've been having are taking their toll in a major way. Today i can barely keep my eyes open and so very bloodshot! =( I don't think i am going out tonight though so i can wash my hair, paint my nails and get an early night, i know i need it..but to the same extent its like a total shock to the system if i dont see the guy in the evenings since we've both gotten so used to seeing eachother every evening. I saw him last night though, and we're out tomorrow evening too so i know i'm being silly. Especially since i am going to have to adjust quicksmart to the fact that as of next week he will be at uni all week, and its his final year so i dont want to hog that much of his time! 
 I also just wish i could let go of the whole doom and gloom pessimistic outlook i have, im convinced anything good will fuck up, and this is going well. *touches wood* Sometimes i wish i could give my inner paranoid voice a swift kick up the back side!

In other news, the other PA where i work has just handed in her notice so soon enough i am going to have to adjust to working with someone new. I hope we get on! ..

God, i want my bed!!!!! 

I have been so lousy with catching up with everyone, this will change. Just as soon as i have caught up with those magic zZz's i will fix it. 

Yesterday i returned from my 4 day stint in Paris.

Went on Thursday for my birthday, was pretty good. We flew over which i was quite worried about since the whole increased security thing etc, and despite being off on Wednesday,  i didnt bother packing till Thursday morning in typical me fashion, which then meant i was running round like a headless chicken trying to remember everything! Not to mention my cousin dropped her 2 kids at mine for me to babysit till her sister could come get them later! The other one came to collect them, but she ended up staying most of the day too which meant i had 4 kids to watch - so very loud! And my sister went and got her GCSE results and she is way better with kids then i am...although on this particular day the two youngest would not get off my knees! Anyhow, at about 4ish we departed for the airport and managed to check in. I never realised there was a pret in heathrow! I was happy when i discovered that, did some shopping - boreded and went off...it was raining so it was a turbulent flight which meant i got off feeling slightly ill, then had to que for 45minutes for a cab.

Got to the hotel, and despite the room being quite small, the location was good so we wernt so annoyed.

We went and saw the sights, which included climbing up to the top of Notre Dame only to get soaked on the roof! Also climbing the eiffel tower, and Moulin Rouge.

Went to the Dali exhibition which was hysterical as the bloody place is high up a hill, somewhere behind the sacre couer(sp?) and we went climbing up these tiny wet cobbled streets constantly lost! Lol, it was well worth it though, had alot of his statues displayed...i am even more in awe of him now then before... i adore that artist so much! 

On the last full day in Paris we went to Disneyland. It just had to be done really since my whole childhood we didnt go there once! It was sooo cute...i was excitied so i could see how children would be before they know it isnt all just make believe! 

Spent alot of money over there and have come back exhausted! I think i need a holiday to recover from this holiday! lol..back at work today though =( *sighs* back to reality....

Least theres bank holiday next week though.

I'll post photos from France once obtained..

Why is it, now after two whole years, my professional life is looking up, and im soooo much happier on that front.

Yet my personal life is such a complete and utter fucking shambles, with no evident way of getting better?!

MEN!!!